Worn out.

Today I woke up feeling absolutely aweful. I am just hoping I am not coming down with whatever it is that Mattie has. Sunday and Monday she went around puking all over the house. But when I quit giving her milk she stopped. So I was thinking that it was possible lactose intolerance. But then decided to try giving it to her in a small amount Monday and she kept it down. Only to start having the poops. Ugh, nasty watery disgusting poops. And yet she is the same happy baby. No excessive crying. Still takes her naps fine and goes down easy for bed. So who knows what is going on..

I think I am FINALLY done bleeding. Went all day yesterday without it but then as I was cooking dinner realized that I was bleeding slightly again (bright red). But then a few hours later it was gone. No more blood today so far. So, maybe (fingers crossed) I am getting back to normal.

And now that I am. I am starting to wonder if I really want another baby. Manhattan is so perfect but a handful. Can I handle another one? Can our finances? Can hubby? So, now I am biting my nails as to what to do. Although I did this with Mattie.. Did I want a baby?? Yes! No! Then the same through my pregnancy. Did I make a mistake? Yes! No! Then she arrived and it has been a roller coaster but never really regretted having her. Just the added stress. But now that I am not killing myself working graveyards at the lab and getting more than the 3 hours of sleep that I was. The stress is much better. And I don't want to screw up the nice little life we have here.

Ah, ok. I am done babbling. I feel terrible which only makes me worry about everything else so much more. Which reminds me I need to call and make a few (none pregnancy related) doctor appointments. Got to get my thyroid levels checked and go see my primary care doc for my yearly (which are always lame since I go to 2 other doctors every 3 months). Back to bed for a few minutes since hubby took Mattie to the store.

Back to TTC

So, after a wonderful (almost) year and a half with our awesome daughter. We have decided to try to have another baby. I am now a stay at home mom with Manhattan and figure this would be the best time to have another one so I can stay at home with this one as well and in a year or two return back to the work force.

I had my Mirena IUD removed on March 3rd. And have been bleeding off and on since then so we will wait for next month to try and let my body get back to normal. Even though I want to try NOW I don't want to miscarry because my body isn't ready.