Worn out.

Today I woke up feeling absolutely aweful. I am just hoping I am not coming down with whatever it is that Mattie has. Sunday and Monday she went around puking all over the house. But when I quit giving her milk she stopped. So I was thinking that it was possible lactose intolerance. But then decided to try giving it to her in a small amount Monday and she kept it down. Only to start having the poops. Ugh, nasty watery disgusting poops. And yet she is the same happy baby. No excessive crying. Still takes her naps fine and goes down easy for bed. So who knows what is going on..

I think I am FINALLY done bleeding. Went all day yesterday without it but then as I was cooking dinner realized that I was bleeding slightly again (bright red). But then a few hours later it was gone. No more blood today so far. So, maybe (fingers crossed) I am getting back to normal.

And now that I am. I am starting to wonder if I really want another baby. Manhattan is so perfect but a handful. Can I handle another one? Can our finances? Can hubby? So, now I am biting my nails as to what to do. Although I did this with Mattie.. Did I want a baby?? Yes! No! Then the same through my pregnancy. Did I make a mistake? Yes! No! Then she arrived and it has been a roller coaster but never really regretted having her. Just the added stress. But now that I am not killing myself working graveyards at the lab and getting more than the 3 hours of sleep that I was. The stress is much better. And I don't want to screw up the nice little life we have here.

Ah, ok. I am done babbling. I feel terrible which only makes me worry about everything else so much more. Which reminds me I need to call and make a few (none pregnancy related) doctor appointments. Got to get my thyroid levels checked and go see my primary care doc for my yearly (which are always lame since I go to 2 other doctors every 3 months). Back to bed for a few minutes since hubby took Mattie to the store.

Back to TTC

So, after a wonderful (almost) year and a half with our awesome daughter. We have decided to try to have another baby. I am now a stay at home mom with Manhattan and figure this would be the best time to have another one so I can stay at home with this one as well and in a year or two return back to the work force.

I had my Mirena IUD removed on March 3rd. And have been bleeding off and on since then so we will wait for next month to try and let my body get back to normal. Even though I want to try NOW I don't want to miscarry because my body isn't ready.

Wow..

Geez! Coming on here makes me realize just how fast time flies!! I felt like just yesterday I had update on here!! I updated a bunch of pictures so you can see just how wonderful Manhattan is growing.. Just last night she laughed really loud for Kelly and I. I was really special. She is getting big.. At least 12 lbs. WE go back to the doc in February. Well, Mattie demands attention right now.. But I promise to try to update more regularily

Yah!!

Nothing all that big to report.. Everyone is doing well. Mattie is growing like a weed as usual. Kelly is begging for a Wii for Christmas and I am adjusting to working both shifts. It is harder than you'd think switching between working 4am to noon and working 9pm to 6am.

Almost Christmas

We have been so busy getting back to normal life!! I have been having difficulties with work, so for a few weeks I am working 4am to 1230. it isn't as bad as it sounds. I hated the idea of it but it is actually really nice for me. I get to spend more time with the baby while I am wide awake versus being half asleep all day trying to play with the baby and get sleep.. But I will be going back to that in a few short weeks.

Manhattan is doing wonderfully. She is almost 11 lbs (10lbs 15 oz) as of yesterday. She is 23.25 inches long. So she is growing like a sprout. Doc says everything looks good and she got her first set of shots. Mattie did good getting the shots and only cried a little bit afterwards. It was later in the night that she got fussy. She wasn't crying just doing a bit of her fake cry. Eventually I fell asleep and Kelly took care of her most of the night. I woke up around 6 or so with her next to me in bed (guess Kelly brought her to me) and she's been hanging with me all day. She was only a little bit fussy this morning and has been sleeping most of the day. I think she is going through a growth spurt right now because she has been eating like crazy and sleeping more than normal.

I have begun walking her down to the library.. A little over a mile from our house. I like to read and I hope that she will too. We have our Christmas tree up but still no angel.. One year we will buy one. This year we don't plan to do much for Christmas since we already have most of what we need and all our spare money has gone towards getting anything we want for the baby. But really there isn't much we need for the baby since everything we can think that we need for her we go and buy it so now we don't know what to tell everyone to get the baby.. I think we are going to go with giftcards and that way we can just use them as we come across things.

She is still (barely) in newborn diapers and has started to grow out of some of the newborn outfits. But she is still a little too small for 3 month sizes.. She is one of those inbetween babies. She is really long but not fat so everything looks big except for when she pushes her legs out (which she is doing more and more) then you can see why she is in the bigger sizes.

She has taken to sleeping with us for part of the night. We try to get her to sleep in her pack and play, right next to our bed for the first part of the night. Then when she gets up in the middle of the night, we feed her and she usually ends up staying in the bed. I usually end up falling asleep when she is eating and I think kelly just gets so comfortable with her curled up next to him that he doesn't want to put her back. Plus, we can't figure out why but our bedroom is freezing. And her little bed gets cold so it wakes her up and she doesn't like it.

She has gotten really good at holding her head up, just not quite good enough to support herself all the time. She gave me a smile the other day that made me think that she was going to laugh. She crunched her body together and moved her head with a wide open mouth smile.. it was priceless. I wish I could have gotten a picture of it but I was out to lunch but at least my girlfriend got to see it.

Well, I am going to put up some video of her playing with me this morning and a couple of pictures. Also, we are sending out our Christmas cards, if you don't get one please let me know. We finally got an address book but for some reason, I keep coming across names of people that I don't have addresses for so i misplaced a bunch of them somewhere.

Family Picture

Here is a picture of our cute little family. I've decided to stay a brunette for now instead of red since it faded to brown so fast anyway.

My brother is in town for Thanksgiving and I am so excited for him to get to play with Manhattan while she is small and 'floppy' since he will one day have children. I will make him. It is so rewarding to have this little person that is part of you and means more than the world to you.

I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving.

Video of Manhattan

Here is a video of our baby girl playing with her glow worm.. She loves to lay in her crib and just stare at it..she hits it with her hand when she wants it to play more music.. So cute.

She is almost 6 weeks!! Time is flying by! Kelly went back to work last week and this is my first week back to work.. It so incredibly hard to leave out sweet little girl behind but I am thankful to return to work because I was getting bored and needing something to stimulate me and motivate me to get out of my jammies.

We are doing very well with breastfeeding and pumping so she still gets breastmilk when I am at work or unable to feed her. I can't believe how well she and I have taken to it. We have our difficulties at times but overall it is working well.

Manhattan loves bells for some reason.. Nursery music doesn't seem to put her to sleep but instead amuse her and hold her attention.